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Have You Been to Heaven

by Brandon Edge

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Intro 00:12
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drive along the road of hurt and forgiveness try to talk to me and you'll feel that stress yesterday i choked on a chance to make it with my words i broke another chance to live it i've never been to heaven, if you want to go i've often sold the key, but you can find the road i'm at a loss for words when you walk away like that i've got a broken heart, i hope you didn't want that have you been to heaven, you know i want to go i've often sold the key, but you can find the road
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you're getting nowhere with all the places you go you gain nothing even if you own it all you're loved by no one even if you've fucked them all you pave your road to death even if you're healthy and strong so how can you stand to live in this world oh how can you stand when everyone falls just leave it all behind if you want to stay around cause everyone falls sooner or later without a doubt if you keep turning your ship away from helping hands you'll find yourself washed up on the shores of loneliness
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Highly Upset 03:12
there's been times in the past when i believed i was a good man but now i just believe i'm highly upset there's been times in the past when i knew that i could love a sweet little girl like you but it's all fucked up now, cause i've been highly upset well there's been only a few precious times that i've been able to love you yet because, the reason i haven't loved you since is because i have become highly upset highly upset, i'm highly upset you better fuckin' believe it, that i'm highly upset i'm highly, i'm highly obsessed
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[hard to make out, but here's what i managed..] i live all the time ... ...for my mother i guess we loved each other but i'm not sure i find i don't know if i should want you or not because i'm ready to pop and i love you so much that i would... ...my friend said that you were a lover, but what's he know my friend said we don't love each other ... oh baby i don't even listen to a word he says ...you never let me down oh my mother told me that i'm needin' to find another i don't listen to her either i love you to the end and i would never let you down so she says that you would
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Raw Deal 03:07
hey, we need some shit in here we just need, we need a little comfort and consolation for our pain and we need to...eat some dog shit and we need to fuck around and get fucky and get crazy and fly and kick and pick our nose and shove it up our ass and then KILL SOMEBODYYYYYY YEAAAAAAH this is how it goes yeah, got it goin' i met this man on the corner, brown shoes, yea yea all that crap he gave me his phone number and he told meeee oh well i forgot HE WAS FUCKED but he told me that his wife was pretty fine and i said well then you're lucky and all that crap but told me also that i looked like a dirt head stonerbag ugly shit and this is what i told him i said DIE, FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU ROT ROT ROT...ROT EAT RAW SHIT, RAW SHIT, RAW SHIT RAW SHIT god help me if i'm a little angry sometimes, i just can't control myself even with doctors...i went to this doctor... HE TOLD ME I WAS FUCKED in the head, but he told me to come back and take this pill but i told him i wasn't crazy i was just a little bit confused and i just didn't know what to do and sometimes i punch the wall when i'm mad this what i told him i told him i told him DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! ROT IN HELL!!!! EAT RAW SHIT RAW SHIT RAW SHIT RAW SHIT RAW SHIT EAT SHIT! EAT IT NOWWWWWWW!!!!!! ah! die!!! that's what ppl do to me..hehehe you just get a raw deal sometimes just get a raw deal, that's why this song is called raw deal this guy...that guy on the corner...that's what i told him you know i said DIIIIIIIE, AW YEAH RIGHT EAT SOME SHIT EAT IT EAT IT EAT IT AAAAAHHH I'M GOIN' WHACKO I'M GOIN' FUCKIN' WHACKO I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO GETTIN SCARED NOW GETTIN SCARED GETTIN SCARED NOW YOU GAVE ME YOU GAVE ME A RAW DEAL RAW DEAAAAAAAAL YOU GAVE ME A RAW DEAL MOTHERFUCKER!
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Fractured 04:11
[lyrics by tom edge, except those in []'s, by brandon of course] do you know what fractured caricatures scream in my face [justine...(i couldn't read whatever word he actually wrote there)] leering, obscenities, i and i are at war in the clogged drains of humanity force my past ripplin' rugby players, tofu eaters, sooth sayers tryin to breathe, make some room [stay out of the way, oh god] one day at a time screamed the slimy mime he can't act anyway i know better than that, but he won't say congregate on the steps of time barred windows, rolled cars, [molotov cocktails] but i don't mind save me a place in line [fuck this shit i've got better things to do, like kill you, oh] immortal malls hallowed halls, cat calls and rubber balls cream and candy with insignias attached to claws don't you get it, matter doesn't matter does it don't look puzzled unless you want a tag [you can overejaculate] corrupted trees bear no good fruit [but i got nothin' better to do] [fuck it got better things to do, than sit around, fuckin' around with you and everyone else who'd like to get it on and sing this song baby be all i could see, the way to eternity eternity sucks so, no i'm not gonna burn, i'm not gonna burn! for way too long i've lived in this hellhole, get out, big mama thorton...i'm so glad i killed the mime today, died and then wait for him to call me...bob dylan, log cabin village, ragged glory, hey but i...fuck...got nothin better to do...got better things to do than sit around and fuck you...oohoohooh...the way you do it real hard, but when i tell you that i don't want any more you better listen hard really really hard really really hard really hard to stop at this point i'm gettin kinda crazy crazy]
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innocence, that's the one that goes on and on that's the one that goes on
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Comet [V1] 02:37
oh what is strange to my eyes this glorious sight, not alone tonight i'm dreamin' of you, fallin' into this emptiness we both want to hold on to and i'm waiting for the comet watching afar for the falling star i'll know very soon if i saw it they'll never know just how far we are another has fallen beside me hoping to catch a glimpse of us i'm holding on to my faith flying with you into heaven above riding on the comet waiting for light from this beautiful star all the world is ours they'll never know just how far we are
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Inside 02:48
all your life you've been sorry for yourself and all this time i'm wondering if you're somebody else inside all this time i've wondered if you're somebody else what i feel inside, you could love somebody else you see my heart, then i think you need to relax a little on the soft side you need a band, what it'll take it won't be back much, won't be that hard on me won't be that hard for me, take your chances on my nobility i wouldn't sacrifice it all for me you know it baby nowhere, it's in there, it's on me, it's out there
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Calico 04:20
she walks in and smiles at me i can't reply cause she means the world to me and i disgust myself i wish i could be anyone else my disposition is frightening i want to say i love you but fear has hold me still i want to say i love you but i don't love myself the odds aren't in my favor to win you i'm sure but you are all i have except for being sad when i give up the door opens and you walk out i hang my head and cry aloud i'm like a calico and you're a siamese you're priceless and treasured, i'm thrown to the street my intuition is questioning when i look at you i feel two feet tall i wish that i was good enough to be the one with you when i get up the wind howls and all around trees are falling without a sound you and i are together the lights are out, it's bad weather you look over to me in the darkness of this winter's dream when i look at you my thoughts drift into peace i can finally love again, never be without your love when i give up
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you shut me up when you've got nothing to say make me feel like i'm some kind of game mass destruction relieves your pain you pour it down on me like rain why i live to harbor you schemes and lies are all renewed feelin lifeless, i'm feelin' screwed turnin' out to be just like you just keep it simple, empty your eyes of shame our lives are different but it's always the same controlling anger, it comes with fame and arrogance has an heir in your name just leave me alone get out of my face to the human race you're nothin but disgrace my naivety i've seemed to misplace stop turning your life into a waste
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To Give 03:28
i gave it all away to save my only chance with you for all we could have someday, if i could ever stay if i had to speak on my own behalf i'd say i gave it all away to same my only chance with you for all we could have someday, to bleed this last disease you have to give up your space to people with loathing hate and laugh as if you enjoy it some way, and say that it's ok if you could speak on your own behalf, wish you'd say i gave it all away to save my only chance with you for all we could have someday, to bleed this last disease
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do you see the moon tonight, i can only stare waiting for you by my side, will you soon be there well i stare into the sky and i wait for your light if you can see me on the corner, would you stop by i need your love, it's on my face that i need a love with no why well i stare into the sky, wait for your life to come into the light and i wait for the light stare in the sky and i wait for the light the martyr sings a helpful cry my senses are going to the dogs i can feel and you can fight together we'll find a little happiness i love to sit and stare all night
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Wooden Plate 00:22
you'd like to think the wooden plate is burning you'd also like to think that i'm hurting well i've got a little secret for you i'm not the one who's lacking the truth!
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intrinsic values hard to find and anything is hardly mine search for wealth in something good only find what's in my soul drive it out now, stop this all feel like i'm climbin up the wall love that i once had is with me now i'm alone tonight, it's desolate, cannot hear a sound by my nightstand i will wait til you arrive and i see your face it's all i want in this world it's not obsession, i just love you girl i'm still waiting for your call feel like i'm climbin up the wall love i once had is with me now i'm cold tonight, it's desolate, i cannot hear a sound
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i waited forever for you girl i let nobody in my world i've filled these pages with my love my last request shall never rise above no matter how hard i can try i can't escape how i believed a lie now don't you wish that you were my friend, my friend cause i'm the one with all the cash to spend and you think that i'm all alone but it ain't gonna be like that anymore i've found a way to push the pain away all your stupid words are all washed away never heard again it's nothing personal i just know i was never meant to be alone oh so many nights i've wondered how i could live without you but i know now what i can't do is live without you so what can i do, oh what can i do!
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Sandal [V1] 03:35
i can read through your silent helpless dreams in my mind i see you falling, and i reach for thee in states of loveliness confused by hate i'm feeling lonely, won't you please stay i'll sit and comfort you for tonight i'll stay by your side forever, all my life i'll start a fire, won't you sit with me and i'll die from desire, as i watch you sleep i long to break the silence between you and i when i'm up i am so high i could touch the sky love me if it's alright, let me know for tonight don't leave your memory for i need you so
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Slumber [V1] 03:26
i'm alone, god help me, i'm falling, falling asleep in control of absolutely nothing i'm losing my mind forever i'll spend in this state longing for someone to save me from my slumber unable to help myself up in my mind my whole life controlled by something i can't see or ever dream i could know me or my purpose i'll leave it, don't leave it up to me forever i'll spend in this state all in a hurry to do nothing do it well, oh i'm losing, losing myself
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if ever i'd walked through hell it's when i said i'd sell your trust in everything i said and did ...left me alone and dead i can't try to ask why you left me last night i can't begin to know why you left me last night ... ... ... why you left me alone i'll never understand ...never know why you left me last night i can't try to ask why my faith in you is my sight my whole life, i can't begin to know why you left me last night
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ooh i got my head alive and i know where to find you well oh no, i gotta try you would help me and well all-white and the faded dye a picture of your eye i gave you all my thought and everything i've got ahh ahh ahh
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all of my life i've forseen the rays of radiant sunlight on your face i read all the pages of silent ways of love i wrote them myself and practiced them enough i always walked alone and i don't know how i'll walk anymore seems all i've ever loved is you i need you forever, do these words ring true can you ever know, will i always be alone don't know if i can tell you all i know don't know how i'll sing anymore will i always be alone
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i saw you standing there in the doorway with a passion in your eyes that i can't mistake i saw you standing there, you were standing in my way you couldn't see me and i thought that what i wanted is what you wanted too, and if i would have only known i could've changed a few of these words to my song and even though i still love you i thought that no one else could repay you for what i did i saw you standing there passion in your eyes no one could mistake standing in the doorway, standing in my way i can't repay you for what you did for me i know what you did was hard to relate but if i knew that you hated me too and i thought that what i wanted was what you wanted too but i was, if i was wrong my baby why didn't you tell me if i thought i was mistaken would you let me know if i don't know, baby ah let me know let it show oh
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some people say it's wrong to be different but it's always good to be really cool as part of my daily jump i can find a reason to stay behind i'm green with envy at your brand new life i'm stuck in this body, it was never too good for me some people say that it's wrong to be different but it's always good to be really cool as a part of my daily jump i can find the reason to stay behind i'm green with envy at your brand new life i'm stuck in this body, it was never too good for me you got a brand new life and i'm still here stuck in this body, you're too good for me ... listen to my life you can rephrase my life, you can change my life you can rephrase me, you can change me i know i love you, i'm never good for me i'm green with envy, and i'm stuck in this body was never too good for me cause i've been stuck inside my head
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All 03:59
in the darkness i can see a love that takes a hold of me to everything that you hold true forever showing itself to you a love like this can always live forever's all i'll give i've got it all, as long as you're with me i've got it all, baby in your eyes i do believe what came before could still be seen in the darkness of my shame reducing myself to contain the wants of true eternal bliss and thoughts of someday you to kiss a love like this can always live forever's all i'll give i've got it all, as long as you're with me i've got it all, baby
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Dragonfly 02:43
why don't you tell me what you think i'm inclined to wonder what they mean still entrenched in my utter stubborness i dream cause things seemingly aren't what they seem when it's a crime for me to decide i can't rely on images, see when it's a crime for all that's not mine i can't rely on images, see maybe they mean what they say when have i ever been sane why do i ever feel this way to hell with thoughtful thought today
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[i wish there were vocals to this]
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fuck you...i just a-felt like sayin' it
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[the only words i'm sure about in this are the title and "my moneeyyy"]
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i am very good in bed you better believe that i'm good in bed, you know i'm good so good that you could screw me right now and no one would ever know ... you ought to know because you're very stupid you're very stupid ... stupidest chick that i've ever met in my whole life my whole life i'm feelin good, feelin so good, i'm feelin so so so good feelin so good think i'll go for a while, until i regain my... throw a few rocks around, you know what i mean, yeah because you know just what i mean i love to throw rocks at your head i love to make sure that you become dead i'd like to make you dead i feel so good, feelin so good yes i'm feelin so fuckin wonderful that i could just eat shit yeah i'm feelin so great, gotta eat some worms, throw some rocks around at your head, til you're dead i can't believe it, i've become insane i don't know how to sing anymore yeah man i've become highly upset yes
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Hanging 01:01
i was captured, brought to this place only to die i was captured, brought to this place she strung my hands up, all alone
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standard staples i kick myself in the ass kick myself in the ass one time... givin it all away to my baby tonight she ate all her toenails then she said baby i want your toenails but i said i don't want to cut my toenails off so fuck you bitch fuck you fuck you fuck you got a big problem with controlling myself
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John Denver 01:11
i'm john denver, you are a shitlicker i'm john denver, you are a worthless imbecile bring me another frog to eat john denver dines on frogs dines, on frogs
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Weird Noises 01:51
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released October 23, 1995

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Austin, TX-based songwriter. 30 albums avail. on bandcamp or elsewhere [youtube & mediafire]. All downloads are FREE or name- your-price! See my FB artist page [linked below] for full discog and links to almost all of my music [click the "about" tab then click "see more" under where it says "description"] ... more

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